I’m a cancer survivor. I had a ‘good kind’ of cancer and I survived with relatively little collateral damage given that oncology medicine in the 1980’s was rudimentary and somewhat brutal. Hey, I’m not dead.
Today, I’m left with regular episodes of being “in a bad way”. I’m not sick but I’m not well. Several parts of my body have some swelling or inflammation, my lymph glands are swollen suggesting a viral problem and I have minor headaches regularly. My muscles ache and are weak. I sleep ok but I’m tired from the moment I wake up. I mean, the exhausted of tired that I used to get at the end of a 16 hour day but at 8am in the morning after sleeping for ten hours. When you get tired you make bad decisions and I find it hard to maintain a healthy diet,
In a few weeks, I’ll be back to my ‘normal’ self. Its ok. Its happened dozens of time before for the last 30 or so years and I just need to be patient.
Yes, I’ve been to doctor, several times. Blood tests show nothing and the symptoms are generic. Quite often, by the time I get to the doctor I’m getting better and the episode is over. Doctors surgeries are full of sick people and I’m concerned to catch something while I am in weakened state so I am always a bit slow to book a slot.
What This Means
Sometimes the exhaustion means I’m a bit testy and short tempered. I’m aware of it and conscious about keeping that out of my podcasts.
I’m struggling to find the focus to write more often. I’m able to keep up with podcasts with the support of the Packet Pushers team, and get articles written for the newsletter. I’m focusing on delivering the work that I must do including the Interop Future of Networking track in mid-May which I’m really looking forward to.
My long form writing has taken a hit because I’m struggling to find the necessary concentration. I’m up to date with stories for Human Infrastructure Magazine (subcribe)
I’m mostly keeping up with microblogging on EtherealMind and chatting on Packet Pushers slack, and other forums.
I’m taking steps to focus on eating better and making sure I get exercise which gets difficult when you are exhausted.
I will be back in a few days or weeks, just watch me.